I too struggled with PTSD, trauma, loss and grief, so I offer my story as testimony that anyone who seeks a solution to these inner wounds can bring healing to their lives on a Soul and human level through Spiritual Transformation.

Putting my story out there wasn’t easy, but I know it is important for others to relate to and identify with me in order to consider what I offer on healing. I am not a trained clinician. I am a person who has experienced the same issues as many, found healing, and I am committed to helping others through my transformation story.

“If I can do it, so can you!”

A pretty picture perfect beginning…with an intuitive twist

I enjoyed a great childhood with a caring family and friends for a lifetime. I was a typical boy growing up, but by mid-teenage years I began my quest to be in control of my life, take on the world, and super achieve with mixed results. This should have been my first clue that human control over reality might teach me something later.

Along the way though, intuition revealed itself… I had many intuitive moments when I just “knew” about things, people and places and saw and felt things I couldn’t quite understand. I always felt like I had a higher purpose for my life, and something was leading me there. The first profound intuitive experience I can remember occurred when I was six and a half years old, and as a result, I absolutely knew I was supposed to be a fighter pilot and serve something greater than myself, both in military service and my personal life. That experience was life altering and taught me to listen to a Higher Power.

These intuitive moments continued through childhood and into my early adult years. I kept it to myself though, because in our family’s social circles, you chose a professional life of school, degrees and careers, not following intuition and long-term military service.

Following passions, dreams and a purpose…well, sort of

Ignoring my intuitive passion and knowing, I began grad school. I was miserable and struggling to see purpose with my studies , but finally decided to follow my intuitive calling. I joined the US Air Force and became a fighter pilot. Somewhere along the way of mixing being in control, super achieving, and following passions, dreams and desires, I kept getting a tap, tap, tap to educate and empower others. I became a kid’s coach, Sunday school teacher, and a fighter pilot instructor in the air and classroom. I loved it.

However, along the way, family medical issues began to surface, and life took an unexpected path. Most of my reality was about to radically change and hand me some extremely tough years and lessons.

All hell breaks loose mixed with my life’s purpose

After returning to the U.S. from a fighter assignment flying F-15s in Okinawa, Japan, life began to get even more complicated and soon dramatically changed. Family medical issues intensified, and I left the military to support my family while running businesses from home. Then the effects of those medical issues worsened, and I became a full time caretaker and care manager for others while battling health insurance, healthcare providers and court systems. My businesses declined, our marriage struggled, always present nightmares worsened, and soon my own medical issues reared their ugly head under tremendous stress. I also began to deal with losses and grief within a support group I helped facilitate.

All along the way though, that tap, tap, tap kept coming, and I continued to find ways to educate and empower through coaching, teaching, mentoring and training. This sense of purpose allowed me to keep my sanity and gave me a desire to live through nights dealing with never ending immense trauma, pain, struggle, fear, violence, destruction, loss and grief. However, signs of PTSD began to become fairly evident, but as always, I compartmentalized them and pushed through it all because people were counting on me, and well, I was still under the delusion I could control it all.

Time passed that seemed like an eternity of hell on earth, but I eventually re-entered military service to serve with my two older sons who had joined the US Army in a time of war. Nine months later our oldest son and I stood on the ramp of Dover AF Base on a humid summer night in our Army fatigue uniforms and saluted our second oldest son’s body as they carried him off the transport plane from Iraq. Ten weeks before redeploying home, he had died of suicide in Iraq. PTSD and trauma certainly affected his choice in a battle for personal survival. Two years later, with family medical issues still exacting a toll at home, I was in Afghanistan, and for a short time, our oldest son, now a Green Beret, was my roommate in a combat zone. After we returned home, I began my last assignment apart from family and our oldest son was medically retired due to injuries. Then, all hell broke loose again at home with family not co-located with me.

At a crossroads with no relief in sight from PTSD, trauma, loss and grief

I found myself two different people, super achieving at work by day and intensely struggling at night to deal with extreme family medical issues, solve never ending problems, and accept calls from a few Soldiers and others I was helping who were struggling and contemplating suicide. I was finally challenged by several people on my denial of PTSD, so I took three online assessments and scored 95% or higher on all of them. I finally saw a former Special Forces psychologist who stated I was one of the worst cases he’d treated. He said 25+ years of never ending stress, trauma, loss and grief as well as many brushes with death had taken its’ toll on me. There was no doubt PTSD I ignored was consuming my life. Counseling and alternative healthcare helped, but it only treated the symptoms. It was a band-aid for enduring inner wounds.

The moment everything changed…healing and transformation begins

One night soon after I came to realize I had to change or die, I experienced the most profound Spiritual moment of my life…a powerful nudge from God that shook me to the core of my being. I knew it was a Higher Power greater than me. It was a Spiritual call to a new solution I had not yet pursued. A concept that went far beyond my religious upbringing. It was a call to discover myself on a Soul level. I was being encouraged to realize who I was, how I was connected to the Divine as  a Soul, and what the purpose was for my life. A path to Spiritual change had begun, it was time. All the preparation had occurred up to this point in my life, and I was ready. Oh, how I was ready.

The road to healing…

For the next 18 months, I studied, learned, experienced and applied everything I could find on Spirituality. I was fascinated with how much I related to every subject as they became life lessons for my healing. So much Infinite wisdom, so much healing. Then I took a course that provided a Blueprint of my Soul with the help of an amazing intuitive coach. Next, I retired from the military, took a sabbatical, and spent six months using experiential learning to practice everything I had studied to take transformation and healing to the next level.

When I was done, I had experienced tremendous Spiritual, mental, emotional and physical healing from PTSD, trauma, loss and grief. My life and well-being became revitalized with a rekindled sense of hope and purpose. I re-discovered my true self with a new outlook on life. I experienced remarkable healing at a Spiritual level, a level so deep that I now understood who I was as a Soul, my life purpose of educating and empowering others, and the incredibly exciting path ahead for my life. I had gone from a struggling human being to a journey of healing on all levels; Spirit, Mind and Body.

I invite you to join me on a path to experience transformational healing, discover your life purpose and re-connect with your Soul.